You know how the universe seems to be conspiring against you? Like how things that are beyond your control, or things or events that make you feel like you can’t do it just happens? The universe was conspiring against me for a project I was involved with.
I don’t know if I mentioned it here already, but a singer/songwriter contacted me a few months back. Hans Dimayuga, the singer/songwriter, was wondering if I was up to doing a shoot of him for his promotional material. He’s releasing his debut EP soon so it was needed, even though he didn’t want to. I agreed with a fair warning to keep his expectations low as I’ve never done a photoshoot ever.
Anyway, life got in the way. Rainy weather. Busy schedules. Emotional dissolution. Mental breakdowns. I was the problem, really. I felt like I wasn’t up for it yet, even though I agreed. It wasn’t exactly my fault. Sorta. The timing of the then scheduled shoot was just bad. Had to cancel cos I didn’t want my emotional state back then compromising the shoot. Yep, I blame my brain.
So about a week ago, we scheduled the shoot again for last Monday. Weather was shit. Rained. Tuesday, same deal. Cloudy, some rain, but we didn’t want to risk getting stuck in the downpour. I didn’t want to risk my camera getting wet! Wednesday afternoon came and…it was sunny!
I normally prefer cloudy rainy days, but I was so relieved to have a sunny afternoon. We could finally do the shoot that kept getting delayed!
Truth be told, I was anxious and nervous. Aside from the recent inner turmoil that I’m still in, it was my first photoshoot. And I think I did alright. In retrospect, though, I should have been aware of things that I should’ve done (i.e. scout the location, asked the subject to remove the wallet from his front jeans pocket, etc.) Oh, and for some reason, for the first half of the shoot, I was shooting in 5.0 aperture. Stupid stupid stupid! The shots came out alright anyway, I think. We got several usable shots for his promotional use.
Now, I did struggle with the colored photos. I prefer shooting and processing in black and white. My eyes have adjusted well to it. My monochrome skills are getting to the level that I want it to be. Hans was alright with an all black and white shoot, but I did process some photos in color for variety.
For a first photoshoot, I’m proud of it. Especially one that we pretty much winged.
That last one, that’s my favorite.